Let it go and move on

I have realized that I have to accept some things, like them or not, and move on.

For example, I have to accept that June is almost over. For those of you that work year round, I apologize, but for those of us who have a break in the summer (a.k.a. teachers) know what I'm talking about. I love my job and couldn't imagine doing anything else, but it is a high stress, high energy job that I don't think I could do year round without some kind of counseling! Seriously though, I am a little disturbed that June is almost gone because I have gotten nothing done that I had plan to do...other than starting this blog. My house is a mess, my scrapbooks are years behind and my plans to make some extra $$ by having a yard sale have not panned out yet. Oh well, there's always July...

Another example of something I need to accept is that I cannot run 3 days in a row or 5 out of 7 days a week. My body cannot handle it at this point in my "running life".

I have to find other ways to make myself stronger and burn off all the fat that I inhale at every meal. That's where I have fallen short. My bike has flat tires, so I haven't ridden it in forever. My elliptical is a piece of garbage that squeaks and has no resistance (we bought it really cheap years and years ago). So I jump on old faithful the dreadmill and run. Occasionally I walk. Once a week I do a CardioMax DVD. But I'm still putting stress on the same muscles and joints.

So I am learning to accept that running a mile or two 5 days a week is not going to give me that strength I want, or make me faster. Cross-training will.

I also need to accept that it's okay to not run outside at this point in the year. I have been running on the treadmill for the last month because I am such a wuss. I guess because I've never ran outside in the heat before, I'm afraid to even try. Today's forecast is not horrible, but it is humid (shocking, I know):

Looks to me like it is going to gradually get hotter, so now would be the best time to just get out there and do it. But who am I kidding. Unless I go out to run at 9 pm, it's not going to happen, at least not outside.

Another thing I am struggling to forgive myself for is the way I have been eating the last few days. I have had some major stomach/lower intestinal issues for over a week now and salads and fruits have not been my friend. But it's okay to listen to my body and eat some "comfort" foods every once in a while, especially when I am sick. As long as I don't get back into the habit of eating that way all day every day, it's not the end of the world.

So my question to you is, what are you struggling to accept or forgive yourself for?